it's 12.05am now...
cant slp....jaw hurts....teeth kinda hurt too...
realy tired but cant slp...
been thinking thry alot abt my work...
have been asking myself the whole day today...
is this wat i wan?
recongition and all...
yes..i'm really happy with wat i have nw...but wat if 1 day...i lost my ceo backinh?
wont i fall hard on the ground?
and nw...they're expanding to hongkong...which mean i have more opputunities....
but...thou i wanna grow with the company...and learn this trade.....earn more $$ for my family in futute...i dun wanna be mi**ch**ps slave...so contridicting rite?
i've seen how pple change becuz of $$ n politics...
i dun wanna be like them...
yet i'm working with the best of the best now...
will this be a blessing in disguse or wat?

=/ and today my ceo told me that fri night everybody will be going for the club house...even she is going too...i told her i dun wanna go...den she say...no matter wat...i like it or not...it's impt for me to knw i muz build up the rapport between me n the rest...

daddy also say the same...in biz world...to survive...u gonna play tough at time, you gonna play politic...n network...n since i'm like wat he say"sandwich between the upper n the lower" why not take this chances and build the rapport between them and move forward to be the upper...n yet still make myself know to the lower, thou i'm new and m being groom by my ceo, watever i do, my heart is still with the lower...

so chim...>.< ain't ez at all...how to not lose myself in the midst of all this?
i'm so worried...i'll lost myself n become some money eating monster>.<

god...pls send some angels to guide me thru this...