somehow...when a gf of mine told me what she saw last night...
i become numb...void of all feeling...

*i miss u...*
i saw this couple on my way back home today,
the guy was touching the girl hair, slaping her hand,hugging her waist and playing with her bag...n somehow i found myself tearing aittle..=) i guess they remind me of us and tat's how badly missed u r=)
*i miss u...*

next week...fifi will be going to a new home...
the only living thing that will jz sit n listen to all my woes n joy...
who has been living with me for the past 2 yrs...
who has been love deeply by me...will be rehome...
yes i'm refering to my dog...
guess...it''s better for him and me ba...

i dunno how u pple r going to look at me...
maybe...some will find it crazy that i love my dog so much...
some may even find it ridiculous...

but nobody knw how much fifi mean to me...
he was there for me when i have my depression...
he was there when i need a shoulder to cry on n i couldnt find any...

yes i;m crying over my dog now...

no comments is needed from u guys...

luff if u all wan...

i love my dog...

sry dear..hope u wont feel insecure...

it's 12.05am now...
cant slp....jaw hurts....teeth kinda hurt too...
realy tired but cant slp...
been thinking thry alot abt my work...
have been asking myself the whole day today...
is this wat i wan?
recongition and all...
yes..i'm really happy with wat i have nw...but wat if 1 day...i lost my ceo backinh?
wont i fall hard on the ground?
and nw...they're expanding to hongkong...which mean i have more opputunities....
but...thou i wanna grow with the company...and learn this trade.....earn more $$ for my family in futute...i dun wanna be mi**ch**ps slave...so contridicting rite?
i've seen how pple change becuz of $$ n politics...
i dun wanna be like them...
yet i'm working with the best of the best now...
will this be a blessing in disguse or wat?

=/ and today my ceo told me that fri night everybody will be going for the club house...even she is going too...i told her i dun wanna go...den she say...no matter wat...i like it or not...it's impt for me to knw i muz build up the rapport between me n the rest...

daddy also say the same...in biz world...to survive...u gonna play tough at time, you gonna play politic...n network...n since i'm like wat he say"sandwich between the upper n the lower" why not take this chances and build the rapport between them and move forward to be the upper...n yet still make myself know to the lower, thou i'm new and m being groom by my ceo, watever i do, my heart is still with the lower...

so chim...>.< ain't ez at all...how to not lose myself in the midst of all this?
i'm so worried...i'll lost myself n become some money eating monster>.<

god...pls send some angels to guide me thru this...

michio my hamster pass away this evening...
terrible headache since morning...
somehow jaw is aching too...
feverish n no app...
hugs...