happy and sad miz feeling day for me

I'm sad today....

cuz...

it's my last day working the the PM ladies...

was just starting to get adjust to everything den i gonna transfer to Woodland=(which is like so far away=(

oh well...wat to do?woodland might be far, but it's very ez to hit target=? wat to do when i have yet to recieve any news frm dance altier?need $$=( oh well...gonna face reality=/

happy becuz...

i was invited to go for the bec course today^^ cuz they knw i'm very interested so i have a sneak preview:P

den each of us was suppose to go on stage n perform abit lol to warm up^^

hahahaha n the worse thing??we have to choose wat to teach frm a box,(lucky draw kinda thingy. get wat i trying to say nw?)hahahaha n i got hip hop as my theme=n i was like huh??i dun mind bbox hiphop..but dance????hahahaha but anyway i went up n did a few move,-->the aim of it was to see if we were steady,stable,confident enuff hehe i guess i did pretty well=)

this is wat i did:

the 6 steps thingy baby taught me, so i told them imagine there is a box thingy n it workout well^^, den isolation move, the shake ur hip n booby thingy lol den end it off with a baby freeze:P hahaha i knw it was pretty bad if any pro see it..but hey i'm proud of myself ok?hehehehe

below are the pics i took at home with the help of my sis jz to show wat i agar agar did:P

after all the fun, we start the theroy...very boring but still nice=) the lady instructor was trying her best to make it as fun as possible =) appreciated!!

mixed feeling today cuz...

after last night my "special appearance"invited by sharnir after his hiphop class...

a few members came this morning asked for my contact n say that they r from some event comapny , want me to perform n stuff-_-...nv give them my contact haha dun wanna invite trouble lol

oh ya below r the pics i took with my xiao char bo=)

=) m looking forward wed=)
not jz becuz of i can meet baby but becuz...I GONNA BBOX!!
=) today...was made to perform in front of the class after hip hop lesson:P
hahahah sharnir was really nice to ask his strudent to gimme their comment n stuff=)
i'm very proud of myself really=)
for the 1st time, i sound so clear nice n clean^^
everybody tot it was a radio or wat^^ hahahaha so cute^^
guess when i take it ez everything goes well=)

m busy with my free spa thingy this few days while he's gone,=)
m either bz with work or spa or family tiring but fulfilling=)

have i grow up?
have i become more mature?

i'm feeling positive n all,
i do miss him alot i suppose=)
but
it's a rather rational kinda thing=)

m no longer behaving like in the past=)
will be super sticky kinda ger=)

i like the way i m now=)
jz like in the past=)
simple n clean=)

i miss u n i love u n i'm not afraid to say or think hw u will feel or react.
cuz this is how i feel=)
how u feel n stuff is another issue=)
but i love myself more den i love u=)tats for sure=)

Ah Du Music Video 2005 (xia xue)

was watching some utube vid, den came upon this vid...so sweet yet so sad=(...who have this song send me???i wanna set as my blog music=)

Stress...very stress..
went to work this morning den manager called n tell me,Note: tell not ask
tat's i'll be transfer to woodland next week onwards...
erm...can i knw watever happen to human rights???
i said no i wont go but she threaten me i'll lose my job if i dun go...
yeah..u'll probably said i can find other jobs...
but i need $$ desperatly now...
i'm waiting for dance altizer to confrim me...
so i'll have to play by ear... n see how...

haiz...remember wat i sad abt my fights with my mums?
well...its abt their allowance...
gonna give my dad 200 cuz he went for operation, my mums, 200/each, my grandma,100 my aunty 100...cuz they r either sick or old...requested by my mum...
so tat leave me only $10 in my bank now...drain...muahahahaha

haiz....next mth paid only 1000... minus this n tat...only have less den 200 i guess...=( gonna save alot=(
hope the event will get me some gd money...
tat lady called me today...telling me...hey michelle!! i've change ur clothes n u'll be wearing this black jacket very punk looking, with a green top inside and a black jean with heavy metal chains ard....OMFG!!!!punk look....den follow by my hairstyle n make up....and said:"wat we r trying to do here is to sell u off as a package,cuz it's rare for ger to bbox and if this show is gd, u might get more next time blah blah blah"

ok when she said tat i was like...huh??package??me??kill me...pls

ok...i'm so gonna die on that die....cant imagine how i gonna look...all my weird bbox hand gesture gonna come out...DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha i'm going crazy...

ok back to my work, i manage to sell of 4 packages today..

they say everything happen for a reason...i jz hope going to woodland is a right thing...haiz...

i gonna be more decisive n firm...confident...

imu

Sigh....
have an heated aurgement with my mums...
oh well....
like i care....
maybe to certain extend i do care...
but anyway....
i really hope i get the AI job soon...cant wait to move out....
1 thing abt mum...
they can bring out anything n everything u have done wrong and they will date back the the 1st lie u say or 1st mistake u made...
ironic rite?

werid...i dun feel upset...or watever...
so it's either a) i'm already immue to it and give up hope or
b) i've already seen thru things...

Bbox Fever

fever^^

I've jz send my resume for the position of Assistant Instructor,
hope i'll get the job soon, and i'll convert to amore part time staff=)

went for training this morning...really very very tired...
talk about sales den how to sell packages den pilate,yoga and hiphop training sessions.

gee...i'm beat...

den met up with dear larry, got for him lunch=)
it's a quiet day for us, he's not feeling well n i'm tried=)
but i like times like this=)
quiet,jz hug me to slp(thou it was a short 5 mins thingy before u went to the living room:P)
but i like it=)

well, he's flying off to perth tonite will only be back on...erm...before april 4th ba lol
i also nv ask him when he'll be back:P
dun wanna ask too much=)
keep everything sweet simple n clean=)

hmm...i gonna miss u...badly i suppose=)
enjoy ur trip n competiton^^
let's go n really dance when u're back ok??
we went to the club n always something unhappy will happen=/,
i wan u to see a more confident,pretty,sexy,everything a guy want, who will drive u crazy michelle when u r back hugs^^hahahaha

gonna pamper myself this few days when u're gone^^ hehehe gonna sneak into the spa side again n do facial n all^^with caty^^ hehehe

alright i gtg n rest now huggies!!!!

ps: airport thing quite cheap no airport tax:P*hint hint*
i'm joking:P
MUACKZSSSSSS

hug me...
kiss me...
cuddle me...
comfort me...

Do me a flavour, put urself in my position for onces.

tell me hw would u feel?

example: u knw u a not gd at breakdance, u keep crashing, but pple invite u to do show for them, what will be ur concern??

will u be:

stress cuz u knw urself very well, u knw u gonna flunk badly n there will be breakdancers ard who knw u CMI and u''ll be deen a poser, a wanna be, someone who disgrace the bboy community.

or will you jz take it ez?

touch ur heart and ask urself, hw do u feel when u got ur 1st show?or maybe u were smart enuff to knw that it's service they wan, n they fuck care abt qualities.

den I'M SORRY, I KNW NUTS ABT SERVICES.

I DUN MEAN TO MAKE U SO FUCKING STRESS N COVER ME.

i know this sound selfish but if THEY WAN MY CLIP THEY CAN FUCKING WAIT ELSE GET SOMEBODY ELSE!!!

wat's wrong with me, u might think...

nOTHING!!!i'm jz somebody who's still living in her fairyland, thinking it's abt qualities they wan,not services, jz someone who's not even gd at bboxing n yet trying to make a fool out of herself n disgrace the bboxers n u.

yes i'm super upset now, so???

bear in mind ger....

y work so hard n be perfect...when...let's forget abt it....

i'm sorry...to make u feel so stress up n get u being screw up by those event pples...sry

but anyway, i can bbox anger into my clip now...damn dope hahaha...yes indeed...anger...I SAY U GOT SOUL!!!BABABALALALALABABABALLALALALA

does pple start respecting u after u lose ur cool?
i'm going to close dwn my friendster acc...
alot of nonsenscial pples messaging me..
i dun like it...
well...i can alway ignore them=)...
but tat's ok i guess=) i've enuff friends=)
with or without friendster doesnt make any diff...

this song is so sweet tat i'm so happy^^

Have change my blog song^^
Super love this song!!!!
SO SWEET!!!
i can see alot of pics from this song^^
hehe if i can make a mtv out of this song,
this is hw the mtv will go...

starting 2 eldery couple,sitting by the bench...
eldery man holding onto eldery women hand,
looking into her eyes,full of love and passion and say: U're the most beautiful women in the world, i'm glad i've found u=)...
eldery women, feel touch, smile,place her hand on eldery man face,feel his winkle and say:U're my heart n soul...

den the music start...

eldery couple think back of how they get to knw each other...how they found each other..

den in this scene,

young man, in his study room, looking out of his room...
n sing n wonder where is the special love he has been searching for...

young lady, in her bedroom,staring into the starry starry night..
sing and wonder too...where is the special love of her life too...

next scene,

young man and young lady, get to knw each other when caught in a super heavy rain,
seeking shelter from a bus stop, young lady,shivering as she was all drench, young man, took off his jacket n offer her...they exchange smile...

this is how their love blossom....

den clips of them, going out, having picnic by the beach, how they make up after each argument, how he propose, how she cry for him, hw they have a happy family till now...when they r old...

=) i'm so happy^^ hehe feel so fortunate when i listen to this song n imagine the video=)
i'm 1 super random n weird ger..so pls pardon me=)

anyway...sprain my ankle when i was bring my dog for a walk, floor was pretty wet...=)

hugs=)

i enjoy our time together=)

anyway...mei mei going taiwan on april 27...so good=( for holiday...

i also wan...

i wanna go oversea too...enjoy diff things...see diff culture...

gastric pain now...to tell the truth i really dinno wat is the doc in sg doing nwadays...

shan't elaborate much...jz kinda piss off...

it's lky pain till heart pain lo...haiz nvm=(

m really really tired...gonna rest nw...

nite love...

hugs...

This is how the conversation goes between that lady instructor and i

as she walk into the staff lougue when i was having my break.

me: oh hi, morning=), jz wanna inform u that our computer is currently down so u wont be able to clock in today.

she: huh?oh ok.

she: hey i heard u're taking up the pilate course, is it true?*sneering at me, i can sense i pinch of sarcram*

me: oh yes i am*smile back trying to be polite*

ok den she did this.

she: HahHAHah but u?pilate?ahahaha aiyo...u'll ruin the pilate instructor reputation, see u have fats here,here,here and here*and she was pointing at it*
author note: doesn't her mum teach her any manner??nv point to a person while talking??

me: *gritting,upset,angry n i felt so humiliated* oh~to be honest, i dun see myself as fat=)chubby maybe but i'm working on it, thanks for ur concern, i if that;s the case, u might wanna get yourself a new set of clotes to cover up those cellulite of urs, i'm afraid that ur students will freak out seeing those cellutide, and oh no!!u 2 will ruin the dance instrucor image right??

she: *really angry and start shouting and grabbing me*OH SO U THINK U R BETTER DEN ME?SO U THINK YOU ARE SMART TO SAY THOSE REMARK?*and she scold me v.v.vugalr words*

me: *shocked, i dunno wat took over me n i...erm... yell back at her n i forgot wat i said*

me: *i hate pple who scold me as if i'm some kinda sult*

she: *mumble mumble dunno wat and walk out...*

me: *i felt so guitly after slapping her...and i kept shivering...*

this is how the whole conversation went... anyway, after tat it seen our whole converation was overhear but my col...n they were telling me that, the female instructor dun like anybody to get too close to the member=x...so now...is it my fault? but in order to hit my target...i muz get to knw the members mingle with them rite??haiz...wat is the world coming to?

m upset..jz blog a super long entry n logspot fail on me...

haiz...not a v.gd day for me cuz a lady instructor was kinda rude to me, pointing my body parts, saying i;ve fats here here n here...n stuff but i revert back to her surprise=) guess all this while me kping quiet choose not to revert back at her is a wrong decison...anyway she stop bothering me after tat...

took quite alot of pic today=)

not slping early...gonna study pilate thingy=)

those who wanna knw the story....i'll blog when i'm feeling better

ps: have been a v.v.nottie ger with cat today sneak into spa. jaccuzi,steambath n gym area today=) hugs mgs me for the pics^^