will post a vid of me singing bizzare triangle love later.

i wan to be treated like a royal princess from some faraway lalaland.

i can be so selfish sometimes...

anyway...when i reach hm today...
happy to see fifi for another few more days b4 giving him away...
sad cuz he will be away soon...
greet mum when i came home but she choose to ignore me...
den she purposely pick a fight with dad...
den start to shout n scream...

this is the kinda home i dread to go back...

how diff is it?

to have a happy family?

to have supportive mum who is not superstitious?

dear all...pls lemme know if u guys need any part timer...

i jz wanna find another job to kp myself bz...

so i wont think so much when i'm alone..

n when i'm home i'll jz slp...

how diff is it to be happy?

hmm...was talking to a co-worker of mine today..

she told me she is migrating to canada=)

a great place to be=) good benefits from the country n all...

tats where i wanna retire=)

how abt u dear?

[It's just a pet...n so she say...]

i'm trying to be strong...i'm trying very very hard not to cry...
but somehow...tears still found their way...
my only companion thru my lonely nights is gone...
no more fifi..no more barking..no more playful winky game...
the pain...is...unbearable yet bearable...
unbearable becuz i can't believe my mum have to push me to such an extent...
just becuz of wat a stupid fortuneteller say...
bearable becuz..i knw i have to live with it...
cuz it's her house afterall..n i have no say at all...

[It's just a pet...n so she say...]

i was really bore at work and so i read up ur blog starting from june 2004.

i teared...yes i teared while reading ur past entries...

i understand why you dun like me to do silly thing like"remove ur top" last nite...

u were being tramatized...n impression wise...i understand now...

i understand why, you wan me to grow up and yet dun wan me to grow up...

you just wan a simple relationship=)a honest n simple relationship

i understand why, you dun wan me to expect too much...

you are just protecting me...

i understand why, you dun wanna promise me forever and likewise dun wan me to promise u forever...

you afraid that you might hurt me badly or one day i might hurt you badly too...

i understand it all now dear...

but i jz wanna love you and pamper you..like u've never been love b4...

let me try to slowly remove those unwanted stain from you past ok?

hugs...i want to lay and slp in ur arm, under the star, on the bed, on the sofa, in the train, on the bus, on a cruise...and u will just kiss my forehead and tell me you love me...hug me tight...snuggle me...and make love to me...the sweetest love ever...=)

hugs...my mum jz called...she's going to give fifi away now...while i'm at home...was sad..den suddenly numb...it's like how u miss orange dear...it's the same feeling ba..he was there for me when i have my depression..but mum kp emphasising that it's only a pet...hugs...

that's also one of the reason why i wanna take up breaking...
after fifi is rehome...i'll have to be home alone...with nobody to listen to me rant...
breaking is good i guess...i'll be super tired after breaking...go home just slp...
at least i can still get to see you train=)
i'm not learning to break so i can see u train dear=)
it's just something i wanna learn for myself=)
hugs...

i love you dear...

lemme knw how you feel or think in future=)

i might not ba able to help...but i'm here for u..dun keep everything to urself=)

n i dun need expensive ear-ring or flowers=)

i jz need u=)

hugs i miss those 3 special words that comes from you

what is wrong with me today...
1)wanted to sms bf that i'm going to visit joyce later..in the end send to joyce...joke of the day...
2)wanted to know if there's anything bothering bf...in the end i throw temper on him when he send me a 1 word mgs..
3)wanted to find someone to listen to me...but dad's bz, friends..erm...either working or MIA?bf bz too, sister...bz with bf n school and so i blog...ironic
4)bring my dog down for a walk today and got bang by a bike..ya a bike...but he was going slow..so slight bruises only...how considerate can biker be?he didnt even bother to ask if i'm ok and just ran away...wat the...freaking dulan now...
5)trying to bbox and i got electrocuted...n so even my mic is against me...
6)dunno where those sliming centre got my no..KEEP FREAKING ASK ME TO GO DOWN FOR THE TRIAL EVEN THOU I TOLD THEM LIKE DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES I M NOT INTERSTED!!!I VERY FAT MEH??????
7)ok...this is my blog...so...keep those hurtful comment to yourselves if u intend to say i'm childish or watever...yes i am now!!!so???i'm only human
PERIOD!!!!i'm going to shut my mobile >.<>

ok if anyone of u are going to say i'm selfish, childish, stupid, not understanding that kinda shite...PERIOD!!!den so be it~ i have a very very bad day today if you guys cant put yourself in my shoe den shut up!!!

=( jz wan him to tell me everything will be ok...not diff rite?sorry dear...i'm not in the right state of mind today...=(

hmmm...went to esplanade today..
a private event at singapore art cafe..
was fun=) but onces..i reach home..i realise it's not fun le..
i've 4 les/bi who added me on my msn...
who comment tat i look sexy/hot/cute/pretty
another 3 guys who wanted to get my no...

ok..so i'm cute/pretty/hot/sexy/desirable...

but...it's gigs and show i wan...not this kida nonsense...

gosh...wat is this man...

anyway i'm awarded the best dressed award!!lol well when i told my sister she told me...well..it's most prob becuz of ur top...-_- sian half...

ok so back to the les...we're talking right now...lemme see wat is she up to...maybe i can be like my bf..brainwash her lol...try...

peiwen...if u see this message now...pls call me...
i've been trying to reach you...but either ur phone is off or u hang up on me..
i'm not angry with u in the 1st place..was jz upset but afterwhich i really understand why you r so protective over me...
girl...i dun have any close friend anymore...fifi is gone..anglelina is gone..n u're my only close and best friend i have now...
there are things i can only relate to you and only u...
pls pls pls call me...
i'm waiting for ur call...

friends dun do that...
friend dun badmouth friend other half...
i can only say...i'm very disappointed in you...
this friendship..is over between us...i'm tired....

*i've a c*lebr*ty bf*
i was being approach abt 8 times today by a some bboy n gers wannabe, asking the same quests:)
"you're larry gf right??"
"your bf is larry the Bboy right??can intro me in FUYo????"
"hey, can i learn bboying from larry??"

hugs...i'm happy 2 b ur girl=)

den....i did something unexpected today^^
i volunteered myself n bbox!!!
wow!!!it's my 1st time volunteering and perform in front of so many pples^^ and i feel good=)
hugs, love u have no ideal how happy i was, when i saw u running to the front and cheer for me^^

hugs thanks for trying to be there =)