i wanna learn batuchadas!!!!!!!!!!
sexy Sexy!!!!!

to stay in a fuck up place n learn to handle politic stuff or not to stay is the question...
i'm starting to understand wat u mean when u say when i've to learn, observe n protect myself...=)
i've make my stand v.clear today to everybody what my jobscope is about, to take it or not to take it is their problem=)
if they feel i'm not suitable to work for them den i always have other place to go=)
hmm...m thinking of getting a tattoo...but strong objection from families n friends...
true...tattoo will last me for a lifetime...
will my love for butterfly die down?
how m i going to tell my kids if they ask y i have tattoo in future?
will i regret in future?
will having a tattoo ruin a perfect mum image to my kids in future?
wat will my employer feel if i have a tattoo?
if i become a kinderland teacher..hw will the kids n their parents react?
so many factor to consider if i wanna get a tattoo...

maybe i'll jz get a spray tattoo..lol..

oot uoy ssim i=)

m kinda emo tonite...
i let my heart too my head too much...
there's this cleaning malay aunty...who is...or so she claim she is v.ppor...
i see her..coming in every afternoon...
nuthign to eat...no proper water bottle..jz a jollybean container to contain water for her to drink...i knw she goes ard borrowing money from people...n she borrow from me at time...
so instead of borrowing her money...i'll cook or make some food for her to eat...but...there are some other peoples who will say i'm stupid to do tat...well maybe i m...maybe she is lying she is poor n all...
but tell me...

u look into a old plump haggard cleaning aunty eye...
she's coughing..u can hear her breathing so heavily...so heavily that u wonder will she stop breathing the very next sec..you can only see nothing but sadness n depair in her eye...n it seen everytime u do something nice for her...her eye lit up...maybe she' luffing at me..wat a fool i m...
but who cares....i dun care....tats me...take it or leave it..

body aching =) but i kinda enjoy the pain...
hope i can get to be kinderland teacher...gonna go dwn for interview soon=)

i prefer working with kids..=)innocent...sweet...

newbody was tiring...
kickboxing was fun=)
release all the stress,tension and all today=)
dramarama day for me today...
glad daddy was really supportive...
he actually called me twice today n check if i'm ok=)
mummy too=) but she cant express well=)
feels good to be love by family=)

i'm happy i starting to have event company calling me up about me bboxing n skating=)
hmm....m trying to record a voice clip for my friend...she say she looking for someone to sing n bbox at her cafe...was wondering how i would sound..lol m going to try recording now=)

any listener?JOKING!!!

=) the past 2 weeks had been tough and busy...but i'm still standing strong...=)

iyfuh=)
iyfuk=)
iythusilu=)

i'm really tired...
lucky i have a free spa session today...can rest...=)
alot of things been going on..
but i've grown=)
hugs...

=)

i'm tired

have u ever woke up in the middle of the night,
walk to the mirror,
look at your on reflection?
r u surprise how much u have change over time?
i did last night,
i realise i've changed so much...
it's kinda scary..
it's like i suddenly dunno who i am, and what have i become.
layer and layer of mask seen to be on my face like thick make up...
getting diff to remove them...

hmm...we are all ike...turtle...
so vunerable...the only place we can hide is home..
but sometimes even home...u gonna wear a mask....
to be the mr nice guy n miss goodie...
that's life i guess...

=) i'm still learning...

who m i....

=) i wanna thanks baby for being such a sweetie n get me LG Chocolate^^
have been wanting to get it for a long long time...but didnt expect him to get for me^^
was really touch...n surprise but...i had a really long n...not so nice day lately...thus...i give him a feeling that i wasnt happy with the surprise...

sorry dear..alot of things in my mind...alot of nice sweet things and horrible things happened all so fast...so fast so furious...i cant digest at 1 go...really sorry to make u feel unwanted, insecure and all...my bad...wasnt sensitive to ur feeling...

i wanted to learn bdance today cuz...i remember u said...bboys, normally try to look for dancers as gf so they can understand each other...so...i was thinking if i learn abit...so maybe next time when u bring me out at least i know...wat u r toking about....lky wat is the guy doing...did he crash?his six step nice?all this kinda thing...at least u can relate to me n u wont be like toking to a wooden block...sorry....

i really love this pressie u got me...i hope u like urs too...but as compare to ur pressie...mine is really nuthing...sorry...

i'm not smart or fast dear...i'm slow...so pls bear with me...if i irritate u...thanks for trying to be nice to me=) i really appreciate it...really =)

hmm...back to skating...injure my right ankle very badly...den jz nw while was on the way home...was rushing for the last train...1130...ankle fall into the mrt gap...damn pain...lucky i quicky pull out...else...i think i'm really gone case le...

i really dunno wat else to blog...so many things happened...

but i wan u to knw tat...despite so many things happen...gd n bad....i still love u...i hope u love me too=)

hugs

after every rain, there will be rainbow=)right?
i hope this rainbow stay forever=)

lky wat my manager told me today, it's about the moment...size the moment..
yes=) the moment...for now...i jz wan u to knwi still love u^^*hugs*

hmmm...who can intro me work as kinderland teacher?^^

hmm...finally i had a gd rest today^^
got a new haircut..=/ super punky..i jz wanted it to be neat n short...but nw super short...
oh well hair can grow back-_- lol

baby suprise me last nite^^ n we went n watch the robinson=)
no comment abt the movie thou...but it's quite meaningful..some part that is=)
thou time is short but m content=) really didnt knw he'll be coming=)
u cant imagin hw happy i was=)

but maybe last nite we went home quite late n he was wearing contact thus today his eye hurts again....=(it was so bad that he had to canceled his class...

wanted to go over to his place n look after him...
but i think it'll be better for me to lave him alone today...
thou i wanna tc of him badly...i dun wanna risk getting eh...dun wanna risk getting him irritated=)

hmmm...want to share a pc of gd news with u guys=)
i'm being invited to esplanade(art cafe) of either the 3rd or 4th week of may(it will be on a wed)
for a showcase=) m asking charles to collab with me=) hope this can really work out^^

den this sat speech day...i have extra tix...who wanna go with me?

i love u dear..
pls take care...
i really wish i can do someting for u...
but i duno where or hw to start

this is how tired i m...
i fall aslp while bathing...
n i jz wanna say i rest my case.

hmm...this coming sat gonna report to my sec school at 9am for speech day
lol feel lky a student again=) lol
m bz preparing powperpoitn slide...
might have to give a talk if there's time..
gosh....i really wonder what the teacher will say about me...
wat should i wear...hmmm....

hmm...

i miss my long hair....

random...

hmm...

i'm trying to upload a bbox clip...

still figuring out..

ok....lemme tell u guys abt my day today...

not a v.gd day....have got 4 sales today...which are suppose to be mine...
but my sales got cut...yes...in my face...
haiz....it seen they cant wait to see me quit this job...
but wat to do?i need $$ i need a job...
yes i can find another job...
but i dun wan a 9-6 job...
my passion is teaching..is sharing whatever i have with others...
yes teaching=)

den...my manager told me...
if i'm late for 1 min...company will deduct $2...
lol 1 min $2!!!crazy shite....
haiz...if off day or mc...another $40 gone...
seriously...watever happened to staff benefit??
oh well..i guess this is another way, am*re survive thru out the yrs...

haiz...was kinda disappointed wif papi last nite...
cuz he has his commitment...tat i understand...
thus he have to cancel our date....oh well...i really understand...
jz upset...cuz u knw i'll always welcome her...if u wanna bring her along...
but u choose to do it another way...it's ok papi=)
i've grown up...in a way...at least i'm not making a big fuss=)

long long long day...
i tried to reason with the hq managment...but they say rules r rules...screw up..i'll leave if i m offered a better pay..humph

den my hp is pretty much gone...

oh well...i jz have to endure a few more months..den i think things will be better for me ba=)

positive thinking ger...yes positive

Aurthor notes: it's not my dear i'm disappointed with=)

i'm feeling very disappointed...
but i understand...
it's ok...