Had been a long long day..

Had been a long long day for me today...
but i'm glad i've u to lean on=)
u're rite=)i guess...i'm jz plain jealous...
i'm jz upset...my attention gonna be diluted...
i'm no longer papi little princess...
true i should be old enuff to blah blah blah..
but...i jz dun feel comfortable ba...
i gonna share my attention...with another women..
i gonna share my love with...another women...
i'm happy for papi...truly...but it's jz contridicting...
but as long as papi is happy...can le ba...
he need a companion too...
n...i cant be with him forever rite..?
thanks for everything dear=)

anyway...went n support charles gig, had a long n gd tok with sherry^^
nice to catch up with the old times bboxers too=)

orangeclub is looking for bboxers for their upcoming event..
hmm...i wonder...=)

i'm happy today=)becuz of u

i lo--LoV---LuV--LovE---Y--yO--YoOooUuu--TttTTtttttTTtTTtoOOoOOooOOO

i lo--LoV---LuV--LovE---Y--yO--YoOooUuu--TttTTtttttTTtTTtoOOoOOooOOO

i'm very very very very very very happy today=)
words cant express how i felt=)
amazing how things changed over this few months=)
i'm glad i've u by my side=)

i love u dear=)
i really love u=)

hmm...

jz hm frm the event..
n my thoart is bleeding again...
very very painful now...
even swallowing saliva seen painful...

overview: "How i felt overall abt the event"
well...i could have been better...
but i'm proud of myself today, at least i did not chicken out..
at least i manage to bbox till the model finish walking..
i might not look confident n all...
but i'm slowly changing for the better,i jz need more exposure..
slowly ba...take 1 step at a time...
i can do it...n i've improve..havent i?

well...i lost $20 bucks today but gain exper n exposure..
not alot but well...
kinda seen the "real world"...
wat can i say?
it's like a big slap on ur face n u jz woke up from it...
jz felt...ironic...

female mag lady jz called me...
=)said alot of nice nice stuff,
but we shall see how=)
dun wanna expect too much or watever..
let's be more practical=)

well 1 thing for sure...
if i gonna have some more bbox gigs...events or show..
i better buck up...train more...n interact more=)

i like the way u kiss me today=)
aggressive n passionate=)hugs

my decision is made

No wonder baby n the rest was telling me..
life as a instructor is not ez...
work for passion?lol

well...i guess all parent wan the best for their kids=)
but...this is seriously wat i wan=)

i dun wanna spent my life working in a office, 9-6 jobscope
gossiping with the ladies n stuff.

nor do i wanna keep changing job jz becuz i wanna please my families.

i know i cant please everybody, so i'll jz have to be abit selfish n do wat i wan=)

my decision is made.

SweEt SurPrise^^

had a very very sweet surpise today^^
was at work, stoning n smsing baby when he suddenly pop out at my work place after i text him this"i'm so going to hug u n kiss u passionately i dun care if anybody else is ard"
hahaha n i was like huh???Eh???*shy>.<*, my manager n all was there smiling n observing when baby give me the pressie 1 by 1^^

1st he handed me my amore jacket den a baby pink nike jacket!!!>.< kinda ex...
i'm so touch happy n surprise tat i jz go..eh...huh??huh??eh....erm.....*blush blush blush*
he muz be so so so tired after his flight n classes!!!yet he still make his way dwn =)
thanks love i really appreciate it^^ really!!!

:P i still have 2 pressie:P

hehe it's my turn to surprise baby:P hugs^^

i love u^^(K)

FINALLY!!!

I finally found a butterfly necklace i like^^!!!

I"M LOVING IT!!!

i'm so obsesses with butterflies^^ hehehe

show u guys my pic^^

hahaha m so bored so i tried to make myself look sexy n all lol hahaha

gimme ur comment ya??

MY BuTTERFLy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

trying to act sexy la...but cmi muahahaha!!!!

happy happy!!!!!!!!!

I"M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Baby Came online n look for me today!!!
jz to say he miss me!!!!
i'm soOOOOOOOOOO super touch can?!?!?!

=) jz a simple i miss u very much makes my day=)
hugs dear i love u^^!!!

hmm...but this trip...he's not very happy with wat he's experciening...
*hugs*dun sad sad ok?
m not gd a words so pls pardon me=(

We had a date=)
ok more like i make a date with him=)
gonna bring him to a nice retreat when he's back=)
so he gonna check his schedule again=)

*wink* u gonna love this retreat^^ hugs!!!!!

happy and sad miz feeling day for me

I'm sad today....

cuz...

it's my last day working the the PM ladies...

was just starting to get adjust to everything den i gonna transfer to Woodland=(which is like so far away=(

oh well...wat to do?woodland might be far, but it's very ez to hit target=? wat to do when i have yet to recieve any news frm dance altier?need $$=( oh well...gonna face reality=/

happy becuz...

i was invited to go for the bec course today^^ cuz they knw i'm very interested so i have a sneak preview:P

den each of us was suppose to go on stage n perform abit lol to warm up^^

hahahaha n the worse thing??we have to choose wat to teach frm a box,(lucky draw kinda thingy. get wat i trying to say nw?)hahahaha n i got hip hop as my theme=n i was like huh??i dun mind bbox hiphop..but dance????hahahaha but anyway i went up n did a few move,-->the aim of it was to see if we were steady,stable,confident enuff hehe i guess i did pretty well=)

this is wat i did:

the 6 steps thingy baby taught me, so i told them imagine there is a box thingy n it workout well^^, den isolation move, the shake ur hip n booby thingy lol den end it off with a baby freeze:P hahaha i knw it was pretty bad if any pro see it..but hey i'm proud of myself ok?hehehehe

below are the pics i took at home with the help of my sis jz to show wat i agar agar did:P

after all the fun, we start the theroy...very boring but still nice=) the lady instructor was trying her best to make it as fun as possible =) appreciated!!

mixed feeling today cuz...

after last night my "special appearance"invited by sharnir after his hiphop class...

a few members came this morning asked for my contact n say that they r from some event comapny , want me to perform n stuff-_-...nv give them my contact haha dun wanna invite trouble lol

oh ya below r the pics i took with my xiao char bo=)

=) m looking forward wed=)
not jz becuz of i can meet baby but becuz...I GONNA BBOX!!
=) today...was made to perform in front of the class after hip hop lesson:P
hahahah sharnir was really nice to ask his strudent to gimme their comment n stuff=)
i'm very proud of myself really=)
for the 1st time, i sound so clear nice n clean^^
everybody tot it was a radio or wat^^ hahahaha so cute^^
guess when i take it ez everything goes well=)

m busy with my free spa thingy this few days while he's gone,=)
m either bz with work or spa or family tiring but fulfilling=)

have i grow up?
have i become more mature?

i'm feeling positive n all,
i do miss him alot i suppose=)
but
it's a rather rational kinda thing=)

m no longer behaving like in the past=)
will be super sticky kinda ger=)

i like the way i m now=)
jz like in the past=)
simple n clean=)

i miss u n i love u n i'm not afraid to say or think hw u will feel or react.
cuz this is how i feel=)
how u feel n stuff is another issue=)
but i love myself more den i love u=)tats for sure=)

Ah Du Music Video 2005 (xia xue)

was watching some utube vid, den came upon this vid...so sweet yet so sad=(...who have this song send me???i wanna set as my blog music=)

Stress...very stress..
went to work this morning den manager called n tell me,Note: tell not ask
tat's i'll be transfer to woodland next week onwards...
erm...can i knw watever happen to human rights???
i said no i wont go but she threaten me i'll lose my job if i dun go...
yeah..u'll probably said i can find other jobs...
but i need $$ desperatly now...
i'm waiting for dance altizer to confrim me...
so i'll have to play by ear... n see how...

haiz...remember wat i sad abt my fights with my mums?
well...its abt their allowance...
gonna give my dad 200 cuz he went for operation, my mums, 200/each, my grandma,100 my aunty 100...cuz they r either sick or old...requested by my mum...
so tat leave me only $10 in my bank now...drain...muahahahaha

haiz....next mth paid only 1000... minus this n tat...only have less den 200 i guess...=( gonna save alot=(
hope the event will get me some gd money...
tat lady called me today...telling me...hey michelle!! i've change ur clothes n u'll be wearing this black jacket very punk looking, with a green top inside and a black jean with heavy metal chains ard....OMFG!!!!punk look....den follow by my hairstyle n make up....and said:"wat we r trying to do here is to sell u off as a package,cuz it's rare for ger to bbox and if this show is gd, u might get more next time blah blah blah"

ok when she said tat i was like...huh??package??me??kill me...pls

ok...i'm so gonna die on that die....cant imagine how i gonna look...all my weird bbox hand gesture gonna come out...DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha i'm going crazy...

ok back to my work, i manage to sell of 4 packages today..

they say everything happen for a reason...i jz hope going to woodland is a right thing...haiz...

i gonna be more decisive n firm...confident...

imu

Sigh....
have an heated aurgement with my mums...
oh well....
like i care....
maybe to certain extend i do care...
but anyway....
i really hope i get the AI job soon...cant wait to move out....
1 thing abt mum...
they can bring out anything n everything u have done wrong and they will date back the the 1st lie u say or 1st mistake u made...
ironic rite?

werid...i dun feel upset...or watever...
so it's either a) i'm already immue to it and give up hope or
b) i've already seen thru things...

Bbox Fever

fever^^

I've jz send my resume for the position of Assistant Instructor,
hope i'll get the job soon, and i'll convert to amore part time staff=)

went for training this morning...really very very tired...
talk about sales den how to sell packages den pilate,yoga and hiphop training sessions.

gee...i'm beat...

den met up with dear larry, got for him lunch=)
it's a quiet day for us, he's not feeling well n i'm tried=)
but i like times like this=)
quiet,jz hug me to slp(thou it was a short 5 mins thingy before u went to the living room:P)
but i like it=)

well, he's flying off to perth tonite will only be back on...erm...before april 4th ba lol
i also nv ask him when he'll be back:P
dun wanna ask too much=)
keep everything sweet simple n clean=)

hmm...i gonna miss u...badly i suppose=)
enjoy ur trip n competiton^^
let's go n really dance when u're back ok??
we went to the club n always something unhappy will happen=/,
i wan u to see a more confident,pretty,sexy,everything a guy want, who will drive u crazy michelle when u r back hugs^^hahahaha

gonna pamper myself this few days when u're gone^^ hehehe gonna sneak into the spa side again n do facial n all^^with caty^^ hehehe

alright i gtg n rest now huggies!!!!

ps: airport thing quite cheap no airport tax:P*hint hint*
i'm joking:P
MUACKZSSSSSS

hug me...
kiss me...
cuddle me...
comfort me...

Do me a flavour, put urself in my position for onces.

tell me hw would u feel?

example: u knw u a not gd at breakdance, u keep crashing, but pple invite u to do show for them, what will be ur concern??

will u be:

stress cuz u knw urself very well, u knw u gonna flunk badly n there will be breakdancers ard who knw u CMI and u''ll be deen a poser, a wanna be, someone who disgrace the bboy community.

or will you jz take it ez?

touch ur heart and ask urself, hw do u feel when u got ur 1st show?or maybe u were smart enuff to knw that it's service they wan, n they fuck care abt qualities.

den I'M SORRY, I KNW NUTS ABT SERVICES.

I DUN MEAN TO MAKE U SO FUCKING STRESS N COVER ME.

i know this sound selfish but if THEY WAN MY CLIP THEY CAN FUCKING WAIT ELSE GET SOMEBODY ELSE!!!

wat's wrong with me, u might think...

nOTHING!!!i'm jz somebody who's still living in her fairyland, thinking it's abt qualities they wan,not services, jz someone who's not even gd at bboxing n yet trying to make a fool out of herself n disgrace the bboxers n u.

yes i'm super upset now, so???

bear in mind ger....

y work so hard n be perfect...when...let's forget abt it....

i'm sorry...to make u feel so stress up n get u being screw up by those event pples...sry

but anyway, i can bbox anger into my clip now...damn dope hahaha...yes indeed...anger...I SAY U GOT SOUL!!!BABABALALALALABABABALLALALALA

does pple start respecting u after u lose ur cool?
i'm going to close dwn my friendster acc...
alot of nonsenscial pples messaging me..
i dun like it...
well...i can alway ignore them=)...
but tat's ok i guess=) i've enuff friends=)
with or without friendster doesnt make any diff...