This is how the conversation goes between that lady instructor and i

as she walk into the staff lougue when i was having my break.

me: oh hi, morning=), jz wanna inform u that our computer is currently down so u wont be able to clock in today.

she: huh?oh ok.

she: hey i heard u're taking up the pilate course, is it true?*sneering at me, i can sense i pinch of sarcram*

me: oh yes i am*smile back trying to be polite*

ok den she did this.

she: HahHAHah but u?pilate?ahahaha aiyo...u'll ruin the pilate instructor reputation, see u have fats here,here,here and here*and she was pointing at it*
author note: doesn't her mum teach her any manner??nv point to a person while talking??

me: *gritting,upset,angry n i felt so humiliated* oh~to be honest, i dun see myself as fat=)chubby maybe but i'm working on it, thanks for ur concern, i if that;s the case, u might wanna get yourself a new set of clotes to cover up those cellulite of urs, i'm afraid that ur students will freak out seeing those cellutide, and oh no!!u 2 will ruin the dance instrucor image right??

she: *really angry and start shouting and grabbing me*OH SO U THINK U R BETTER DEN ME?SO U THINK YOU ARE SMART TO SAY THOSE REMARK?*and she scold me v.v.vugalr words*

me: *shocked, i dunno wat took over me n i...erm... yell back at her n i forgot wat i said*

me: *i hate pple who scold me as if i'm some kinda sult*

she: *mumble mumble dunno wat and walk out...*

me: *i felt so guitly after slapping her...and i kept shivering...*

this is how the whole conversation went... anyway, after tat it seen our whole converation was overhear but my col...n they were telling me that, the female instructor dun like anybody to get too close to the member=x...so now...is it my fault? but in order to hit my target...i muz get to knw the members mingle with them rite??haiz...wat is the world coming to?

m upset..jz blog a super long entry n logspot fail on me...

haiz...not a v.gd day for me cuz a lady instructor was kinda rude to me, pointing my body parts, saying i;ve fats here here n here...n stuff but i revert back to her surprise=) guess all this while me kping quiet choose not to revert back at her is a wrong decison...anyway she stop bothering me after tat...

took quite alot of pic today=)

not slping early...gonna study pilate thingy=)

those who wanna knw the story....i'll blog when i'm feeling better

ps: have been a v.v.nottie ger with cat today sneak into spa. jaccuzi,steambath n gym area today=) hugs mgs me for the pics^^

gonna give my dog away....for his own gd...and for mine too...he'll be upset...me too...but he'll be happier with another family...he can roam ard...happily...

dad in hospital....cant visit him due to some reason....haiz...

wanna thank u for helping me to get wat i wan=),
i knw u're trying to help me as much as possible n trying to protect me..
thanks i really appreciate it...
words cant express how i feel...
when i look into ur eye today...
how serious u look....
how worried u look...
regarding my job...
i felt so guilty...
felt so...useless...
tot i will be independant by myself...

jz send my final bbox thingy to baby n lady...
seriously....SERIOUSLY...
IF SHE STILL SAY I CMI DEN SCREW U!!!I"M TIRED!!!
u think its ez to bbox???
den bbox urself lo....
bbox till i got 2 ulcer...super pain u knw???>.<

on the lighter note^^
went to arcarde with baby today=)hugs!!
got 4 toys!!but=(waste $70...
*slap myself*
was so engross in the game till i didnt realise he kp changing $$=(
feeling very very guilty=(
sry dear=(

i love u =)hugs
i enjoy simple day like this=)thou short but it's super nice=)

dunno should say its a nightmare or wat...

i dream i bbox at the show...
den the rest of the bboxers were there...
den...when it's mt turn to bbox..
my voice becme v.soft...
i cant hear myself...
but they say its ok...
n dear say it's gd...n say charles have shows for me...

siao wan...my dream really crazy...shen jin pink de....

it's a sad world afterall lol
wake up ger...stop living in ur own world...
u're no longer in fairyland...
welcome to hell...lol...

>.< alot of thing in my mind..

1st... i dream of koda kumi come out with her brand of make up kit which includ 1 very beautiful PINK BUTTERFLY eyelashes!!!look so pretty>.< but only in my dream=(

2nd...i dream i'm staying out on my own...

3rd...today after work, as i off all the lights, i look into the studio..n i look at the pathway which lead to the shower place n spa...funny tots come into my mind>.< wat the hell rite?

4th...i had to withdraw 930 for my insurance...yes...930 damn ex lo...haiz wat to do....we all knw thw story behind it...

5th...i think i wont get a mic...dunno hw much 1 cost....jz use their will do...anyway i dun think i'll have other show too lol

6th...jaw painful...

7th...a guy instructor say tat i'm too fat to be a instructor..cuz they r really slim...wtf...really demoralise me...and worse...those ger instructor kinda agree=(..ok i may be on the chubby side but who say chubby cannot be instructor??=(

8th...in a few mths time will be angel annivesary....actually wanna save up $$ n go and accompany her....pls god help me hit my target...erm..if u guys r curious...it's a death anniversary thing...

so...conclusion...i have to survive on really bread n water this month till i got my pay...meanwhile anybody got any home base work??can intro me??

ok...have done a 3 mins bbox track sound ok to me, den i send it to a few person to check n here's their comment when i send them the record.

Charles: i like the fever track, but gonna train up ur stamina, else u'll sound really soft n weak over the mic.

Nevo: try to end it smoothly, the rest are ok, project urself louder.

Swift: u gonna practise more ger, u still have 2 weeks to practise and i'm sure you'll sound wicked by then.

Kenna: you sound like..you're nervous and tense up...not sexy enuff, relax and enjoy.

Decoy: hey babe, where did the sexiness go??

after i send them the voiceclip live, this is their comment.

Charles: getting better^^ JIA YOU!!!

Nevo: yeah that's the way ger!!protrait yourself as some superstar!

Swift: Yeah..uh huh..i like tat, sound jazzy n sexy.

Kenna: that's wat i'm talking about, louder, n clear n clean.

Decoy: send me your clip after ur show, i wanna upload in bbox forum.

if u note, yes...we see something in common, in short...i dun sound i'm confident enuff...gee...

stage fright=x, guess i wont be wearing my contact lense tat day muahahaha, cuz i'll be literally blind and i'll be able to enjoy bboxing.

Get Your Sexy Name

kanna sabo

gee....
my friend who is a producer in uk actually sabo me...
was sending him my bbox thingy n asking him for comment n ask him to tell me which part i should slow down n stuff...den.....he....did something to my bbox thingy...n broadcast in his radioshow(underground type)....

at 1st tot he was joking..till he play it live for me and i ask nevo n kenna about it......but sound too pro...dun sound like me at all...hahaha he boost up my bass add background music....=/n he rap...win le lor....

things pple do when there r really bore i suppose=) well it's near 1 now...cant really slp...tmr work from 1 to 10...hope can hit my target=)

lyrics - Natalie Lyrics

HaPPy!!!!!!!!!!super no head no tail post

Happy!!!!!!!hahaha this is a super random, no head no tail post^^
hehehe was quite a gd day for me today=)

manage to sell off a package worth 1.3k with the help of my coll=)

went for pilate lesson today^^, my instructor say i'm a natural!!!hehehe maybe she's jz saying for the sake of saying but it's still a compliment tat make my day^^

she say tat if i wanna be a instructor, choose to take up courses lky kick boxing, pilate or yoga=), cuz there is a demand for it^^n pay is high^^hehehe

den after which wewnt to the gym n work out=) YEAH BRING IT ON!!! heheheh so happy today=)

=) meow if u're reading my blog now=) not tat i dun wanna sms u or watsoever=)
jz feel tat u'll contact me when u miss me=) dun wanna kp sms n call u lky last time=)

n....

WHo WannA Go Eat SusHI with me???
Who WannA go Eat Ting Tai Feng With me???
Brothers n sisters!!
Friends n Foe!!--> ok i take back the foe part=)
dear?haha will u be bZ?=)

ok so happy!!!!!!!!! use steam bath today!!!

ps: i think all of u should read frm this blogger http://bikersballsandteacherstits.blogspot.com/

that kinda joy n love between this 2 fellow=) it jz make u smile=) its lky the most most wonderful thing on earth^^ u can feel their joy!!u knw wat i mean?lol nvm...

haiz...so e timetable i've got is only vaild for this week~
every week my timetable will change...oh well..
hope it is better this way~

can anybody help me find any wallet tat has bling bling butterfly on it?
saw it on tv today=(v.nice but dunno where to get will be greatful to knw where i can get it=)

anyway...work my work schedule had change!!!yeah^^

mon--> 9 to 1pm
tue--> 1.30 to 10pm
wed--> 9 to 6pm
thur--> 1- 10pm
fri-->1130 to 830
sat--> 11 to 8pm
sun --> off^^

yeah^^ only 2 days need to work till 10^^ so happy^^

lalalalala

well i m u today=)

hey peeps!! dl this song by natalie n justin roman title: where are u

super sweet song can????

ok...today didnt turn out to be so gd for me...
1st...my eye hurts lky as if somebody force chilliu padi into my eye...thus i have to throw away my contact lense...n i didn;t have my spect with me...so ya i was literally blind from 11 to 8....

den...somebody "took " my mac barbie doll makeup voucher worth $150...which i got it from a lucky draw thingy,
wtf...i'm not sure who took it...cuz search their bags n all, the voucher jz cant be found...argh!!!!!!!!

den attend cardiolatino by this female instructor...my goodness...is she bitchy or wat...
1st she give me a cold shoulder when i was saying hi to her...ok nvm i take it as she nv see me...den...during the mid of the lesson we had a 3 min break, so i was migling with the rest of the members n ask them hw they like the class n stuff, when 1 member say that she got the move wrong n ask me if i have done it correctly n show her...i was being helpful n show her my move when the instructor appear n say :"wow, very good hor can teach le"

....WTF U WAN?????

i was only trying to be helpful n it was during break...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

=) nvm it's ok=) well thats hw life is in the working world=)
pple bitch ard...n stuff...
it's hard being who u r...

but i'm still standiung strong=)come wat may^^

n special thanks to ade=) for the pressie sorry make u rush all the way here=(
take care when u r in uk ya?

n congratz!!!! i wanna be natasha god mum ah!!!!!!!!!!!

n oh ya!!!b4 i forgot^^

tmr i'm going to have a trial lesson!!!gonna introduce myself n do some simple steps^^thats the gd news...

bad news...even thou i'm undergoing the training session nw...i can only offically join in the team as a instructor in mid aug if not worng...
cuz i'm stil;l new to the company n tats their so call policy...but it's gd i'm having all these training 1st=) at least i knw whats going on n stuff=)

he said, fuyo did quite badly today...
i think, fuyo had already done their best at least they nv use underhand means to curry flavour the judges..

but tats hw i think..i knw nuts abt dance so forgive me if i say anything wrong...

i think...my thinking ah...so dun get offended...

i think fuyo is a bruch of talented n cheerful break dancer, do not get upset over 1 battle, yes this might be very important to u guys...but there r more battle in future=)i'm sure all of u had done ur 101% best le, jia you n jia you ok?

u guys are already my winner.(yeah this might not be imporatnt la...)

n thanks for the very romantic outing dear=) words cant express how i feel yesterday=)i lky the quiet moment we shared=)n enjoyed every moment=)

i want...eh..no...wan is a very strong word...
i hope u can rest early tonite, tmr no matter wat is the result, u guys had already done ur best=), do not dewell on it, u r going to be stronger in ur breakdance after ur trip to perth=)hugs i'll always be here for u^^

happy bday^^

happy bday to myself^^
hehe have dyr my hair black^^ n got myself a pair of hairclip thou not wat i looking for...but guess sg really dun have tat kinda clip i looking for=)

wanna thanks my family to suprise me i'm touch^^ really slpy....love u all...hugs

i'm feeling so nervous till i cant slp now...
tmr working at new place...
cant v.v.scare...
m so stress....
how???work frm 1 to 10...
so scare wat if i screw up something along the way...
gee...guess i've been too comfortable in my comfort zone...
m feeling all the tension now...
hyper tension....
god...my sales target is 28k...
1 mth 28 k...
how???
stress stress stress...
not only i gonna prove to them i'm gd at saleas..
gonna prove to them i have qualities to be a trainer too...
how?...
haiz.......stress........
relax michelle relax....
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i cant find my white polo tee!!!!F***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TATS WAT HAPPEN WHEN U R DAMN NERVOUS!!!!!!!!!!HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!