some anonymous person sended me an email contain this link today~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?search=&mode=related&v=s52EidqcwWo
hmm...guys it might look lky porn but it's not,it's a vid of a guy cheating on his gf and got found out~
It's in spanish and the guy was screaming at his gf, den ask for forgivness and kp shouting "i love u" how disposable have these 3 words become?
Sunday, June 17, 2007
[It's all about the moment...]
[It's all about the moment...]
She needed him to be there for him badly,
She is emotionally drain from her family,
She is mentally drain from her work,
She text him, "i hope i can be selfsih enough to grab a few hours from you, i yearn for your hug."
He replied,"go home dear, you are tired...rest well..hugs.."
She wanted to go home, but was being scream at when she called home.
Upset and Lost, she decide she need sometime to think over everything,
She wonder, why she can't get any of her close and loves one to be there for her when she need 1.
Then, she recieve a message.
"Beep"
A message from him!
He told her, he had just end his competition and ask her where is she.
She stare at the phone and wonder what to reply for god know how long.
And he text her again, "are you sleeping dear?"
She stare at the phone again, and press the button on her phone and text, "I'm at mac, stoning at my work area."
He replied,"You're going back to your depression again love...go home..."
After a few messages,
He texted her, "You can kid me but not yourself, you want to see me, and i'm now here for you. go home dear"
She took a cab home.
She wonder to herself, "how am i going to look i 'm ok?
What am i going to say to him upon seeing him, will he scold me?
is he getting annoyed with me?
i've been giving him so much problems and troubles, is he going to look at me like a xiao mei mei again?
i don't wanna go back to the past and let him think i'm a xiao mei mei...i know i've grown alot..but i'm just sad..i need him to be there for me...that's all...but am i being selfish?
he has his own work and life outside, will this take up his time?
is he going to hate me? does he still love me as much as before? "
All these thoughts came keep pouring into her mind.
The moment she alight from the cab,
She saw him.
He had been waiting for her at her void deck for hours.
she walk up to him,
she mumble "Hi"
He look at her and give her a "i don't know how to comfort you but i'm here" weak smile.
He pull her to him and hug her tight.
She cried.
He kiss her hair.
She cried.
He hold her hand.
She cried.
He just let her cry.
She is touched,
He came all the way down for her,
She loves him.
He's everything to her.
He loves her.
How much?
It doesn't matter
He loves her.
They need a retreat.
[It's all about the moment...]
She needed him to be there for him badly,
She is emotionally drain from her family,
She is mentally drain from her work,
She text him, "i hope i can be selfsih enough to grab a few hours from you, i yearn for your hug."
He replied,"go home dear, you are tired...rest well..hugs.."
She wanted to go home, but was being scream at when she called home.
Upset and Lost, she decide she need sometime to think over everything,
She wonder, why she can't get any of her close and loves one to be there for her when she need 1.
Then, she recieve a message.
"Beep"
A message from him!
He told her, he had just end his competition and ask her where is she.
She stare at the phone and wonder what to reply for god know how long.
And he text her again, "are you sleeping dear?"
She stare at the phone again, and press the button on her phone and text, "I'm at mac, stoning at my work area."
He replied,"You're going back to your depression again love...go home..."
After a few messages,
He texted her, "You can kid me but not yourself, you want to see me, and i'm now here for you. go home dear"
She took a cab home.
She wonder to herself, "how am i going to look i 'm ok?
What am i going to say to him upon seeing him, will he scold me?
is he getting annoyed with me?
i've been giving him so much problems and troubles, is he going to look at me like a xiao mei mei again?
i don't wanna go back to the past and let him think i'm a xiao mei mei...i know i've grown alot..but i'm just sad..i need him to be there for me...that's all...but am i being selfish?
he has his own work and life outside, will this take up his time?
is he going to hate me? does he still love me as much as before? "
All these thoughts came keep pouring into her mind.
The moment she alight from the cab,
She saw him.
He had been waiting for her at her void deck for hours.
she walk up to him,
she mumble "Hi"
He look at her and give her a "i don't know how to comfort you but i'm here" weak smile.
He pull her to him and hug her tight.
She cried.
He kiss her hair.
She cried.
He hold her hand.
She cried.
He just let her cry.
She is touched,
He came all the way down for her,
She loves him.
He's everything to her.
He loves her.
How much?
It doesn't matter
He loves her.
They need a retreat.
[It's all about the moment...]
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Friday, June 15, 2007
i can be so selfish sometimes...
anyway...when i reach hm today...
happy to see fifi for another few more days b4 giving him away...
sad cuz he will be away soon...
greet mum when i came home but she choose to ignore me...
den she purposely pick a fight with dad...
den start to shout n scream...
this is the kinda home i dread to go back...
how diff is it?
to have a happy family?
to have supportive mum who is not superstitious?
dear all...pls lemme know if u guys need any part timer...
i jz wanna find another job to kp myself bz...
so i wont think so much when i'm alone..
n when i'm home i'll jz slp...
how diff is it to be happy?
hmm...was talking to a co-worker of mine today..
she told me she is migrating to canada=)
a great place to be=) good benefits from the country n all...
tats where i wanna retire=)
how abt u dear?
anyway...when i reach hm today...
happy to see fifi for another few more days b4 giving him away...
sad cuz he will be away soon...
greet mum when i came home but she choose to ignore me...
den she purposely pick a fight with dad...
den start to shout n scream...
this is the kinda home i dread to go back...
how diff is it?
to have a happy family?
to have supportive mum who is not superstitious?
dear all...pls lemme know if u guys need any part timer...
i jz wanna find another job to kp myself bz...
so i wont think so much when i'm alone..
n when i'm home i'll jz slp...
how diff is it to be happy?
hmm...was talking to a co-worker of mine today..
she told me she is migrating to canada=)
a great place to be=) good benefits from the country n all...
tats where i wanna retire=)
how abt u dear?
[It's just a pet...n so she say...]
i'm trying to be strong...i'm trying very very hard not to cry...
but somehow...tears still found their way...
my only companion thru my lonely nights is gone...
no more fifi..no more barking..no more playful winky game...
the pain...is...unbearable yet bearable...
unbearable becuz i can't believe my mum have to push me to such an extent...
just becuz of wat a stupid fortuneteller say...
bearable becuz..i knw i have to live with it...
cuz it's her house afterall..n i have no say at all...
[It's just a pet...n so she say...]
i'm trying to be strong...i'm trying very very hard not to cry...
but somehow...tears still found their way...
my only companion thru my lonely nights is gone...
no more fifi..no more barking..no more playful winky game...
the pain...is...unbearable yet bearable...
unbearable becuz i can't believe my mum have to push me to such an extent...
just becuz of wat a stupid fortuneteller say...
bearable becuz..i knw i have to live with it...
cuz it's her house afterall..n i have no say at all...
[It's just a pet...n so she say...]
i was really bore at work and so i read up ur blog starting from june 2004.
i teared...yes i teared while reading ur past entries...
i understand why you dun like me to do silly thing like"remove ur top" last nite...
u were being tramatized...n impression wise...i understand now...
i understand why, you wan me to grow up and yet dun wan me to grow up...
you just wan a simple relationship=)a honest n simple relationship
i understand why, you dun wan me to expect too much...
you are just protecting me...
i understand why, you dun wanna promise me forever and likewise dun wan me to promise u forever...
you afraid that you might hurt me badly or one day i might hurt you badly too...
i understand it all now dear...
but i jz wanna love you and pamper you..like u've never been love b4...
let me try to slowly remove those unwanted stain from you past ok?
hugs...i want to lay and slp in ur arm, under the star, on the bed, on the sofa, in the train, on the bus, on a cruise...and u will just kiss my forehead and tell me you love me...hug me tight...snuggle me...and make love to me...the sweetest love ever...=)
hugs...my mum jz called...she's going to give fifi away now...while i'm at home...was sad..den suddenly numb...it's like how u miss orange dear...it's the same feeling ba..he was there for me when i have my depression..but mum kp emphasising that it's only a pet...hugs...
that's also one of the reason why i wanna take up breaking...
after fifi is rehome...i'll have to be home alone...with nobody to listen to me rant...
breaking is good i guess...i'll be super tired after breaking...go home just slp...
at least i can still get to see you train=)
i'm not learning to break so i can see u train dear=)
it's just something i wanna learn for myself=)
hugs...
i love you dear...
lemme knw how you feel or think in future=)
i might not ba able to help...but i'm here for u..dun keep everything to urself=)
n i dun need expensive ear-ring or flowers=)
i jz need u=)
i teared...yes i teared while reading ur past entries...
i understand why you dun like me to do silly thing like"remove ur top" last nite...
u were being tramatized...n impression wise...i understand now...
i understand why, you wan me to grow up and yet dun wan me to grow up...
you just wan a simple relationship=)a honest n simple relationship
i understand why, you dun wan me to expect too much...
you are just protecting me...
i understand why, you dun wanna promise me forever and likewise dun wan me to promise u forever...
you afraid that you might hurt me badly or one day i might hurt you badly too...
i understand it all now dear...
but i jz wanna love you and pamper you..like u've never been love b4...
let me try to slowly remove those unwanted stain from you past ok?
hugs...i want to lay and slp in ur arm, under the star, on the bed, on the sofa, in the train, on the bus, on a cruise...and u will just kiss my forehead and tell me you love me...hug me tight...snuggle me...and make love to me...the sweetest love ever...=)
hugs...my mum jz called...she's going to give fifi away now...while i'm at home...was sad..den suddenly numb...it's like how u miss orange dear...it's the same feeling ba..he was there for me when i have my depression..but mum kp emphasising that it's only a pet...hugs...
that's also one of the reason why i wanna take up breaking...
after fifi is rehome...i'll have to be home alone...with nobody to listen to me rant...
breaking is good i guess...i'll be super tired after breaking...go home just slp...
at least i can still get to see you train=)
i'm not learning to break so i can see u train dear=)
it's just something i wanna learn for myself=)
hugs...
i love you dear...
lemme knw how you feel or think in future=)
i might not ba able to help...but i'm here for u..dun keep everything to urself=)
n i dun need expensive ear-ring or flowers=)
i jz need u=)
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
what is wrong with me today...
1)wanted to sms bf that i'm going to visit joyce later..in the end send to joyce...joke of the day...
2)wanted to know if there's anything bothering bf...in the end i throw temper on him when he send me a 1 word mgs..
3)wanted to find someone to listen to me...but dad's bz, friends..erm...either working or MIA?bf bz too, sister...bz with bf n school and so i blog...ironic
4)bring my dog down for a walk today and got bang by a bike..ya a bike...but he was going slow..so slight bruises only...how considerate can biker be?he didnt even bother to ask if i'm ok and just ran away...wat the...freaking dulan now...
5)trying to bbox and i got electrocuted...n so even my mic is against me...
6)dunno where those sliming centre got my no..KEEP FREAKING ASK ME TO GO DOWN FOR THE TRIAL EVEN THOU I TOLD THEM LIKE DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES I M NOT INTERSTED!!!I VERY FAT MEH??????
7)ok...this is my blog...so...keep those hurtful comment to yourselves if u intend to say i'm childish or watever...yes i am now!!!so???i'm only human
PERIOD!!!!i'm going to shut my mobile >.<>
ok if anyone of u are going to say i'm selfish, childish, stupid, not understanding that kinda shite...PERIOD!!!den so be it~ i have a very very bad day today if you guys cant put yourself in my shoe den shut up!!!
=( jz wan him to tell me everything will be ok...not diff rite?sorry dear...i'm not in the right state of mind today...=(
1)wanted to sms bf that i'm going to visit joyce later..in the end send to joyce...joke of the day...
2)wanted to know if there's anything bothering bf...in the end i throw temper on him when he send me a 1 word mgs..
3)wanted to find someone to listen to me...but dad's bz, friends..erm...either working or MIA?bf bz too, sister...bz with bf n school and so i blog...ironic
4)bring my dog down for a walk today and got bang by a bike..ya a bike...but he was going slow..so slight bruises only...how considerate can biker be?he didnt even bother to ask if i'm ok and just ran away...wat the...freaking dulan now...
5)trying to bbox and i got electrocuted...n so even my mic is against me...
6)dunno where those sliming centre got my no..KEEP FREAKING ASK ME TO GO DOWN FOR THE TRIAL EVEN THOU I TOLD THEM LIKE DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES I M NOT INTERSTED!!!I VERY FAT MEH??????
7)ok...this is my blog...so...keep those hurtful comment to yourselves if u intend to say i'm childish or watever...yes i am now!!!so???i'm only human
PERIOD!!!!i'm going to shut my mobile >.<>
ok if anyone of u are going to say i'm selfish, childish, stupid, not understanding that kinda shite...PERIOD!!!den so be it~ i have a very very bad day today if you guys cant put yourself in my shoe den shut up!!!
=( jz wan him to tell me everything will be ok...not diff rite?sorry dear...i'm not in the right state of mind today...=(
hmmm...went to esplanade today..
a private event at singapore art cafe..
was fun=) but onces..i reach home..i realise it's not fun le..
i've 4 les/bi who added me on my msn...
who comment tat i look sexy/hot/cute/pretty
another 3 guys who wanted to get my no...
ok..so i'm cute/pretty/hot/sexy/desirable...
but...it's gigs and show i wan...not this kida nonsense...
gosh...wat is this man...
anyway i'm awarded the best dressed award!!lol well when i told my sister she told me...well..it's most prob becuz of ur top...-_- sian half...
ok so back to the les...we're talking right now...lemme see wat is she up to...maybe i can be like my bf..brainwash her lol...try...
a private event at singapore art cafe..
was fun=) but onces..i reach home..i realise it's not fun le..
i've 4 les/bi who added me on my msn...
who comment tat i look sexy/hot/cute/pretty
another 3 guys who wanted to get my no...
ok..so i'm cute/pretty/hot/sexy/desirable...
but...it's gigs and show i wan...not this kida nonsense...
gosh...wat is this man...
anyway i'm awarded the best dressed award!!lol well when i told my sister she told me...well..it's most prob becuz of ur top...-_- sian half...
ok so back to the les...we're talking right now...lemme see wat is she up to...maybe i can be like my bf..brainwash her lol...try...
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
peiwen...if u see this message now...pls call me...
i've been trying to reach you...but either ur phone is off or u hang up on me..
i'm not angry with u in the 1st place..was jz upset but afterwhich i really understand why you r so protective over me...
girl...i dun have any close friend anymore...fifi is gone..anglelina is gone..n u're my only close and best friend i have now...
there are things i can only relate to you and only u...
pls pls pls call me...
i'm waiting for ur call...
i've been trying to reach you...but either ur phone is off or u hang up on me..
i'm not angry with u in the 1st place..was jz upset but afterwhich i really understand why you r so protective over me...
girl...i dun have any close friend anymore...fifi is gone..anglelina is gone..n u're my only close and best friend i have now...
there are things i can only relate to you and only u...
pls pls pls call me...
i'm waiting for ur call...
Sunday, June 10, 2007
*i've a c*lebr*ty bf*
i was being approach abt 8 times today by a some bboy n gers wannabe, asking the same quests:)
"you're larry gf right??"
"your bf is larry the Bboy right??can intro me in FUYo????"
"hey, can i learn bboying from larry??"
hugs...i'm happy 2 b ur girl=)
den....i did something unexpected today^^
i volunteered myself n bbox!!!
wow!!!it's my 1st time volunteering and perform in front of so many pples^^ and i feel good=)
hugs, love u have no ideal how happy i was, when i saw u running to the front and cheer for me^^
hugs thanks for trying to be there =)
i was being approach abt 8 times today by a some bboy n gers wannabe, asking the same quests:)
"you're larry gf right??"
"your bf is larry the Bboy right??can intro me in FUYo????"
"hey, can i learn bboying from larry??"
hugs...i'm happy 2 b ur girl=)
den....i did something unexpected today^^
i volunteered myself n bbox!!!
wow!!!it's my 1st time volunteering and perform in front of so many pples^^ and i feel good=)
hugs, love u have no ideal how happy i was, when i saw u running to the front and cheer for me^^
hugs thanks for trying to be there =)
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Friday, June 8, 2007
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
next week...fifi will be going to a new home...
the only living thing that will jz sit n listen to all my woes n joy...
who has been living with me for the past 2 yrs...
who has been love deeply by me...will be rehome...
yes i'm refering to my dog...
guess...it''s better for him and me ba...
i dunno how u pple r going to look at me...
maybe...some will find it crazy that i love my dog so much...
some may even find it ridiculous...
but nobody knw how much fifi mean to me...
he was there for me when i have my depression...
he was there when i need a shoulder to cry on n i couldnt find any...
yes i;m crying over my dog now...
no comments is needed from u guys...
luff if u all wan...
i love my dog...
sry dear..hope u wont feel insecure...
the only living thing that will jz sit n listen to all my woes n joy...
who has been living with me for the past 2 yrs...
who has been love deeply by me...will be rehome...
yes i'm refering to my dog...
guess...it''s better for him and me ba...
i dunno how u pple r going to look at me...
maybe...some will find it crazy that i love my dog so much...
some may even find it ridiculous...
but nobody knw how much fifi mean to me...
he was there for me when i have my depression...
he was there when i need a shoulder to cry on n i couldnt find any...
yes i;m crying over my dog now...
no comments is needed from u guys...
luff if u all wan...
i love my dog...
sry dear..hope u wont feel insecure...
it's 12.05am now...
cant slp....jaw hurts....teeth kinda hurt too...
realy tired but cant slp...
been thinking thry alot abt my work...
have been asking myself the whole day today...
is this wat i wan?
recongition and all...
yes..i'm really happy with wat i have nw...but wat if 1 day...i lost my ceo backinh?
wont i fall hard on the ground?
and nw...they're expanding to hongkong...which mean i have more opputunities....
but...thou i wanna grow with the company...and learn this trade.....earn more $$ for my family in futute...i dun wanna be mi**ch**ps slave...so contridicting rite?
i've seen how pple change becuz of $$ n politics...
i dun wanna be like them...
yet i'm working with the best of the best now...
will this be a blessing in disguse or wat?
=/ and today my ceo told me that fri night everybody will be going for the club house...even she is going too...i told her i dun wanna go...den she say...no matter wat...i like it or not...it's impt for me to knw i muz build up the rapport between me n the rest...
daddy also say the same...in biz world...to survive...u gonna play tough at time, you gonna play politic...n network...n since i'm like wat he say"sandwich between the upper n the lower" why not take this chances and build the rapport between them and move forward to be the upper...n yet still make myself know to the lower, thou i'm new and m being groom by my ceo, watever i do, my heart is still with the lower...
so chim...>.< ain't ez at all...how to not lose myself in the midst of all this?
i'm so worried...i'll lost myself n become some money eating monster>.<
god...pls send some angels to guide me thru this...
cant slp....jaw hurts....teeth kinda hurt too...
realy tired but cant slp...
been thinking thry alot abt my work...
have been asking myself the whole day today...
is this wat i wan?
recongition and all...
yes..i'm really happy with wat i have nw...but wat if 1 day...i lost my ceo backinh?
wont i fall hard on the ground?
and nw...they're expanding to hongkong...which mean i have more opputunities....
but...thou i wanna grow with the company...and learn this trade.....earn more $$ for my family in futute...i dun wanna be mi**ch**ps slave...so contridicting rite?
i've seen how pple change becuz of $$ n politics...
i dun wanna be like them...
yet i'm working with the best of the best now...
will this be a blessing in disguse or wat?
=/ and today my ceo told me that fri night everybody will be going for the club house...even she is going too...i told her i dun wanna go...den she say...no matter wat...i like it or not...it's impt for me to knw i muz build up the rapport between me n the rest...
daddy also say the same...in biz world...to survive...u gonna play tough at time, you gonna play politic...n network...n since i'm like wat he say"sandwich between the upper n the lower" why not take this chances and build the rapport between them and move forward to be the upper...n yet still make myself know to the lower, thou i'm new and m being groom by my ceo, watever i do, my heart is still with the lower...
so chim...>.< ain't ez at all...how to not lose myself in the midst of all this?
i'm so worried...i'll lost myself n become some money eating monster>.<
god...pls send some angels to guide me thru this...
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