gonna give my dog away....for his own gd...and for mine too...he'll be upset...me too...but he'll be happier with another family...he can roam ard...happily...

dad in hospital....cant visit him due to some reason....haiz...

wanna thank u for helping me to get wat i wan=),
i knw u're trying to help me as much as possible n trying to protect me..
thanks i really appreciate it...
words cant express how i feel...
when i look into ur eye today...
how serious u look....
how worried u look...
regarding my job...
i felt so guilty...
felt so...useless...
tot i will be independant by myself...

jz send my final bbox thingy to baby n lady...
seriously....SERIOUSLY...
IF SHE STILL SAY I CMI DEN SCREW U!!!I"M TIRED!!!
u think its ez to bbox???
den bbox urself lo....
bbox till i got 2 ulcer...super pain u knw???>.<

on the lighter note^^
went to arcarde with baby today=)hugs!!
got 4 toys!!but=(waste $70...
*slap myself*
was so engross in the game till i didnt realise he kp changing $$=(
feeling very very guilty=(
sry dear=(

i love u =)hugs
i enjoy simple day like this=)thou short but it's super nice=)

dunno should say its a nightmare or wat...

i dream i bbox at the show...
den the rest of the bboxers were there...
den...when it's mt turn to bbox..
my voice becme v.soft...
i cant hear myself...
but they say its ok...
n dear say it's gd...n say charles have shows for me...

siao wan...my dream really crazy...shen jin pink de....

it's a sad world afterall lol
wake up ger...stop living in ur own world...
u're no longer in fairyland...
welcome to hell...lol...

>.< alot of thing in my mind..

1st... i dream of koda kumi come out with her brand of make up kit which includ 1 very beautiful PINK BUTTERFLY eyelashes!!!look so pretty>.< but only in my dream=(

2nd...i dream i'm staying out on my own...

3rd...today after work, as i off all the lights, i look into the studio..n i look at the pathway which lead to the shower place n spa...funny tots come into my mind>.< wat the hell rite?

4th...i had to withdraw 930 for my insurance...yes...930 damn ex lo...haiz wat to do....we all knw thw story behind it...

5th...i think i wont get a mic...dunno hw much 1 cost....jz use their will do...anyway i dun think i'll have other show too lol

6th...jaw painful...

7th...a guy instructor say tat i'm too fat to be a instructor..cuz they r really slim...wtf...really demoralise me...and worse...those ger instructor kinda agree=(..ok i may be on the chubby side but who say chubby cannot be instructor??=(

8th...in a few mths time will be angel annivesary....actually wanna save up $$ n go and accompany her....pls god help me hit my target...erm..if u guys r curious...it's a death anniversary thing...

so...conclusion...i have to survive on really bread n water this month till i got my pay...meanwhile anybody got any home base work??can intro me??

ok...have done a 3 mins bbox track sound ok to me, den i send it to a few person to check n here's their comment when i send them the record.

Charles: i like the fever track, but gonna train up ur stamina, else u'll sound really soft n weak over the mic.

Nevo: try to end it smoothly, the rest are ok, project urself louder.

Swift: u gonna practise more ger, u still have 2 weeks to practise and i'm sure you'll sound wicked by then.

Kenna: you sound like..you're nervous and tense up...not sexy enuff, relax and enjoy.

Decoy: hey babe, where did the sexiness go??

after i send them the voiceclip live, this is their comment.

Charles: getting better^^ JIA YOU!!!

Nevo: yeah that's the way ger!!protrait yourself as some superstar!

Swift: Yeah..uh huh..i like tat, sound jazzy n sexy.

Kenna: that's wat i'm talking about, louder, n clear n clean.

Decoy: send me your clip after ur show, i wanna upload in bbox forum.

if u note, yes...we see something in common, in short...i dun sound i'm confident enuff...gee...

stage fright=x, guess i wont be wearing my contact lense tat day muahahaha, cuz i'll be literally blind and i'll be able to enjoy bboxing.

Get Your Sexy Name

kanna sabo

gee....
my friend who is a producer in uk actually sabo me...
was sending him my bbox thingy n asking him for comment n ask him to tell me which part i should slow down n stuff...den.....he....did something to my bbox thingy...n broadcast in his radioshow(underground type)....

at 1st tot he was joking..till he play it live for me and i ask nevo n kenna about it......but sound too pro...dun sound like me at all...hahaha he boost up my bass add background music....=/n he rap...win le lor....

things pple do when there r really bore i suppose=) well it's near 1 now...cant really slp...tmr work from 1 to 10...hope can hit my target=)

lyrics - Natalie Lyrics

HaPPy!!!!!!!!!!super no head no tail post

Happy!!!!!!!hahaha this is a super random, no head no tail post^^
hehehe was quite a gd day for me today=)

manage to sell off a package worth 1.3k with the help of my coll=)

went for pilate lesson today^^, my instructor say i'm a natural!!!hehehe maybe she's jz saying for the sake of saying but it's still a compliment tat make my day^^

she say tat if i wanna be a instructor, choose to take up courses lky kick boxing, pilate or yoga=), cuz there is a demand for it^^n pay is high^^hehehe

den after which wewnt to the gym n work out=) YEAH BRING IT ON!!! heheheh so happy today=)

=) meow if u're reading my blog now=) not tat i dun wanna sms u or watsoever=)
jz feel tat u'll contact me when u miss me=) dun wanna kp sms n call u lky last time=)

n....

WHo WannA Go Eat SusHI with me???
Who WannA go Eat Ting Tai Feng With me???
Brothers n sisters!!
Friends n Foe!!--> ok i take back the foe part=)
dear?haha will u be bZ?=)

ok so happy!!!!!!!!! use steam bath today!!!

ps: i think all of u should read frm this blogger http://bikersballsandteacherstits.blogspot.com/

that kinda joy n love between this 2 fellow=) it jz make u smile=) its lky the most most wonderful thing on earth^^ u can feel their joy!!u knw wat i mean?lol nvm...

haiz...so e timetable i've got is only vaild for this week~
every week my timetable will change...oh well..
hope it is better this way~

can anybody help me find any wallet tat has bling bling butterfly on it?
saw it on tv today=(v.nice but dunno where to get will be greatful to knw where i can get it=)

anyway...work my work schedule had change!!!yeah^^

mon--> 9 to 1pm
tue--> 1.30 to 10pm
wed--> 9 to 6pm
thur--> 1- 10pm
fri-->1130 to 830
sat--> 11 to 8pm
sun --> off^^

yeah^^ only 2 days need to work till 10^^ so happy^^

lalalalala

well i m u today=)

hey peeps!! dl this song by natalie n justin roman title: where are u

super sweet song can????

ok...today didnt turn out to be so gd for me...
1st...my eye hurts lky as if somebody force chilliu padi into my eye...thus i have to throw away my contact lense...n i didn;t have my spect with me...so ya i was literally blind from 11 to 8....

den...somebody "took " my mac barbie doll makeup voucher worth $150...which i got it from a lucky draw thingy,
wtf...i'm not sure who took it...cuz search their bags n all, the voucher jz cant be found...argh!!!!!!!!

den attend cardiolatino by this female instructor...my goodness...is she bitchy or wat...
1st she give me a cold shoulder when i was saying hi to her...ok nvm i take it as she nv see me...den...during the mid of the lesson we had a 3 min break, so i was migling with the rest of the members n ask them hw they like the class n stuff, when 1 member say that she got the move wrong n ask me if i have done it correctly n show her...i was being helpful n show her my move when the instructor appear n say :"wow, very good hor can teach le"

....WTF U WAN?????

i was only trying to be helpful n it was during break...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

=) nvm it's ok=) well thats hw life is in the working world=)
pple bitch ard...n stuff...
it's hard being who u r...

but i'm still standiung strong=)come wat may^^

n special thanks to ade=) for the pressie sorry make u rush all the way here=(
take care when u r in uk ya?

n congratz!!!! i wanna be natasha god mum ah!!!!!!!!!!!

n oh ya!!!b4 i forgot^^

tmr i'm going to have a trial lesson!!!gonna introduce myself n do some simple steps^^thats the gd news...

bad news...even thou i'm undergoing the training session nw...i can only offically join in the team as a instructor in mid aug if not worng...
cuz i'm stil;l new to the company n tats their so call policy...but it's gd i'm having all these training 1st=) at least i knw whats going on n stuff=)

he said, fuyo did quite badly today...
i think, fuyo had already done their best at least they nv use underhand means to curry flavour the judges..

but tats hw i think..i knw nuts abt dance so forgive me if i say anything wrong...

i think...my thinking ah...so dun get offended...

i think fuyo is a bruch of talented n cheerful break dancer, do not get upset over 1 battle, yes this might be very important to u guys...but there r more battle in future=)i'm sure all of u had done ur 101% best le, jia you n jia you ok?

u guys are already my winner.(yeah this might not be imporatnt la...)

n thanks for the very romantic outing dear=) words cant express how i feel yesterday=)i lky the quiet moment we shared=)n enjoyed every moment=)

i want...eh..no...wan is a very strong word...
i hope u can rest early tonite, tmr no matter wat is the result, u guys had already done ur best=), do not dewell on it, u r going to be stronger in ur breakdance after ur trip to perth=)hugs i'll always be here for u^^

happy bday^^

happy bday to myself^^
hehe have dyr my hair black^^ n got myself a pair of hairclip thou not wat i looking for...but guess sg really dun have tat kinda clip i looking for=)

wanna thanks my family to suprise me i'm touch^^ really slpy....love u all...hugs

i'm feeling so nervous till i cant slp now...
tmr working at new place...
cant v.v.scare...
m so stress....
how???work frm 1 to 10...
so scare wat if i screw up something along the way...
gee...guess i've been too comfortable in my comfort zone...
m feeling all the tension now...
hyper tension....
god...my sales target is 28k...
1 mth 28 k...
how???
stress stress stress...
not only i gonna prove to them i'm gd at saleas..
gonna prove to them i have qualities to be a trainer too...
how?...
haiz.......stress........
relax michelle relax....
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i cant find my white polo tee!!!!F***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TATS WAT HAPPEN WHEN U R DAMN NERVOUS!!!!!!!!!!HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OUR FRIENDSHIP(ROCKY STAGE)

IT'S 1 AM RITE NOW...
N I'M FREAKING PISSED....
SOME DUMBASS CALLED ME JZ NW...
SAY SHE'S AT THE POLICE STATION NOW.
SAY SHE WAS NEARLY RAPE.
SAY SHE IS SCARE.
WAS ABOUT TO RUSH DOWN WHEN SHE SAY SHE'S JUZT JOKING..

TO U...

FUCK YOU AND GO THE HELL!!!
I DUN NEED YOU TO TIGGER MY PAST MEMORIES!!
I HAD A FRIEND WHO WAS RAPE TO DEATH,
I TAKE THIS KINDA THING VERY VERY SERIOUSLY
GO SCREW YOU ALRIGHT!!!!
WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH U GUYS????
AM I TOO NICE???
AM I TOO GOOD???
WHY WANNA USE THIS KINDA THING AND SCARE ME???
AM I GOOD TO BULLY????
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE ALL THIS???

FUCK YOU AND GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!
I'LL SPARE YOUR NAME...
I WONT SAY OUT UR NAME...
BUT I WONT HESITATE TO BREAK THIS FRIENDSHIP OF OURS IF U THINK THIS IS FUNNY

Special thanks to isabel

Isabel this is for u,
thanks for the lovely bday pressie=)
i really like it alot=)
u'll always be my best best friend=)
i'm touch that u still remember my bday after so many yrs,
the note that u wrote for me...
give me alot of encouragement=)
i hope u n her will be together happily for as long as u guys can maintain=)

anyway...m really really tired today...
wakeboard from 830 to ard 11plus...
was kinda piss off with the driver...
kp say that he'll leave me out in the sea...
F*CK U!!! i dun like to be disturb when i'm wakeboarding...
i tell him straight at his face that i'm piss with him
den he say i'm "Guai Lan"/"Attitude"
so be it~yes i'm guai lan so screw urself dickhead.
oh well, they have jz lost a customer~

den met up with him,
public apology...
I'm sorry...i didn't know that becuz of what i did or said have cause u so much trouble,other then i'm sorry...i'm still sorry...it's like..i nv fliter thru wat i wanna say or think of the consequences and i'll just say out everything...
really really sorry...i get what u're trying to tell me=),
but i jz wanna let u knw...from the day..i told u, u're a freeman from now, i stop habouring any tots of having assurance n watsoever,i jz wanna be happy n content with watever i have now.
i dun wan u to think, how my parent will react abt us.
i dun wan u to think, if watever u had say, did u hurt me.
i dun wan u to think , what is a nicer way to tell me how u feel.
u say the old larry is back=)
show me the old larry=)
part of the old michelle is still here, she's getting stronger n more independant n learning the ways of lifes...it's diff..but she's learning...

anyway...i walked all the way home jz nw^^ nearly 2 hrs...lol ^^ sweat alot^^
it's like sometimes...when u take a slower paces in life...u'll start to see things in diff lights,u'll start to observe n think more=)

to mum, sorry mummy...
i knw u wan me to get a stable job n all...
but for onces...
trust me...lemme do wat i wan...
lemme fulfil my wish...
i dun wanna live in regret...
else it'll be tiring on ur side cuz u're trying ur best to protect me...yet...ur little ger has already grow up...it's time to let go mum=)

i love all of u...