somehow...when a gf of mine told me what she saw last night...
i become numb...void of all feeling...

*i miss u...*
i saw this couple on my way back home today,
the guy was touching the girl hair, slaping her hand,hugging her waist and playing with her bag...n somehow i found myself tearing aittle..=) i guess they remind me of us and tat's how badly missed u r=)
*i miss u...*

next week...fifi will be going to a new home...
the only living thing that will jz sit n listen to all my woes n joy...
who has been living with me for the past 2 yrs...
who has been love deeply by me...will be rehome...
yes i'm refering to my dog...
guess...it''s better for him and me ba...

i dunno how u pple r going to look at me...
maybe...some will find it crazy that i love my dog so much...
some may even find it ridiculous...

but nobody knw how much fifi mean to me...
he was there for me when i have my depression...
he was there when i need a shoulder to cry on n i couldnt find any...

yes i;m crying over my dog now...

no comments is needed from u guys...

luff if u all wan...

i love my dog...

sry dear..hope u wont feel insecure...

it's 12.05am now...
cant slp....jaw hurts....teeth kinda hurt too...
realy tired but cant slp...
been thinking thry alot abt my work...
have been asking myself the whole day today...
is this wat i wan?
recongition and all...
yes..i'm really happy with wat i have nw...but wat if 1 day...i lost my ceo backinh?
wont i fall hard on the ground?
and nw...they're expanding to hongkong...which mean i have more opputunities....
but...thou i wanna grow with the company...and learn this trade.....earn more $$ for my family in futute...i dun wanna be mi**ch**ps slave...so contridicting rite?
i've seen how pple change becuz of $$ n politics...
i dun wanna be like them...
yet i'm working with the best of the best now...
will this be a blessing in disguse or wat?

=/ and today my ceo told me that fri night everybody will be going for the club house...even she is going too...i told her i dun wanna go...den she say...no matter wat...i like it or not...it's impt for me to knw i muz build up the rapport between me n the rest...

daddy also say the same...in biz world...to survive...u gonna play tough at time, you gonna play politic...n network...n since i'm like wat he say"sandwich between the upper n the lower" why not take this chances and build the rapport between them and move forward to be the upper...n yet still make myself know to the lower, thou i'm new and m being groom by my ceo, watever i do, my heart is still with the lower...

so chim...>.< ain't ez at all...how to not lose myself in the midst of all this?
i'm so worried...i'll lost myself n become some money eating monster>.<

god...pls send some angels to guide me thru this...

michio my hamster pass away this evening...
terrible headache since morning...
somehow jaw is aching too...
feverish n no app...
hugs...

*this might not mean anything to anyone of u*

i'm at work now...n suddenly i reeieve a call from my mum...

my world came crashing down....

Tonight was a huge success, i would say=)
charles and i had never ever expected we would be sooooooo overwhelm by all the applause and whistles and media producers,load of pples were just coming up to us, asking us to perform from them and all!!!!

it's indeed the most most memorable night ever...

thru out the show, i hope u were there to witness everything...n tell me how great it was...but i understand it's a crucial time for u too...i've so much i wanna tell you about...so many things i wanna shared with you...=)it's ok, all these can wait i guess=)

hugs pls do not think or feel i m expecting anything from you, upset with you, being *wei da* or watever negative tat can come to ur RAS system-->brain

i'm jz being nice=)haha

m looking forward to fri^^ day out with joyclyn=)

will somebody?anybody?COME N SAVE ME???
lol....i'm addicted to work...
RAS system...formulas...calculations...letters...everything is in my head...
i nv expect i never ever expect that i will say this...
but...i'm not enjoying my off day...
it's not becuz nobody acc me or whatever...
it's jz tat i've got greater satisfation at work...

plan plan plan michelle...

i'm planning but my brain can only direct me to work...

gosh...

hugz^^
thanks for coming down n surprising me dear=)
n u look cute in ur new spect^^
i enjoy the conversation we have today^^
it's really sweet n heart warming to know you stand up for me^^
hugs^^ m jz so happy nw^^
muackz!!!
i'm in an Exclusive relationship too dear^^*muacks*

bad bad bad bad headache...feel like my neck has dislocated...
nauseous...giddy...
i better behave n get soem gd rest...gosh....

How many girls will get to have a man searching for her high and low at the heart of orchard, in hope to bump into her and tell her, he love her and she's everything he ever wanted?

How many girls will get to have her guy to pop up at their workplace, everytime, she got a new job and it's the 1st day of her work as a form of encouragment?

How many girls will get to have a man to constantly remind her of how he actually fall in love with her because of her innocence and gentleness?

How many girls will get this kinda guy?

1'm one of the girl=)

i need to admit something...
i was at charles pub area sinces 745pm...
i purposely went there early...
in hope that my 6th sense is right...
i'll get to see u...
and...
i delicate a songs for you...
i was hoping to see you ard when you hear the sound...
at 9plus...
i turn my head round...
i saw you...
tears was at the verge of my eye...
i see a man...
a man who is totally exhausted from his hard day...
walking towards me...
holding my hand...
looking into my eye...
smiling at me...
passing a box full of love...
it's at that point of time...
i made a decision...
a decision...
i know...
i'll never regret for the rest of my life...
which is...
to stay,to love you, to take care of you..
for as long as i can...

i love you dear...
no matter wat happen in the past, now or future...

i'm here for u=)

finally...m home to catch my breathe...
had a wonderful times with my girls today=)
thanks for the lovely spa surprise girls^^!!!!
m really touch=) huggies to all of u!!!!

i'm sooooooooooooooooo going to lodge a compalin to LG management!!!
Bad BAd BAD CUSTOMER SERVIES!!!!! not going to talk much about this...will draft the complaint letter later follow by a call...I DUN FREAKING CARE IF I'M GIVEN A 5% DISCOUNT BUT THAT IS CERTAINLY NO WAY TO TALK TO YOUR CUSTOMER!!!!!!!!I DUN MIND PAYING MORE IF I M GIVE GOOD CUSTOMER SERVICES AT LEAST I'M HAPPY

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR.........ENUFF OF THAT........

gonna meet up with xiao hui later n his bf=) den bbox session with charles!!!YEAH!!!!

i took a bus and it bypass my workplace...

n i have the sudden urge to go back n work...is that passion, is that the urge and crave and greed for recongnition and position or is that burying myself with all the work with hidden agenda that my sub-con is acting up and even me myself isnt sure of?

but whatever it is, i'm very happy working in this company=) lunch appt with my ceo this coming monday=), pples are starting to bootlick, apple polish me...haha...how pathic right?super hypo...but what to do? in order to survive in such a political company you jz got to knw where to seek shelter from and where to shun away...well enuff of company...

30 may is my 1st collab with charles...kinda nervous...esply management will be there to see our performances...hope i wont disappoint charles...he's such a gd bboxer...

lastly...i wanna apologise for what my girls and i had did and said to u...
but...they r like u...overly protective about me thus showing their anger n all in you...i'm really sorry...i didn't know they will react so "dramarama" and neither did i knw they read my dairy...

maybe we each have some hidden expectation from 1 another but we dont feel or see it as that way and we just assume and presume it's normal or jz categ it under"these are the thing you should do" category...maybe it's because of the lack of good communcation between us that lead us going round and round in circles, ending up confuse lost upset worried insecured and fustrated...

i knw if i say gimme time to learn u would say, but for hw long?i dun have much time dear...

so, let jz be happy with what we have now ba=), thou we each have some expectation from each other, let's jz try to settle for the less but the best shall we?=)

n i'm not having the comcept "if i change to become someone stronger, dad n u wil love me more"=). no i'm not=) in fact...after working in this company... i truly realise changes to become stronger is needed=) only the strongest survive, right now...all i got to do is the find the pivot to balance work, family and u=)

hugs...i don't is there any insercurities in you after last night what the girls told you, or what kinda damange the conversaton last night had already done.

but i jz wan you to knw, i've nv ever regret being your girl nor m i loving you less...

lets' jz go with the flow n see where it will lead us ba=)

i love you and i still do=)

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to peiwen=) hugs thanks for that long preaching session...
*ouch!!* ear pain=)
but thanks for making me feel better=)

finally!! tmr n sunday is my off day=)
i miss the beach, the miss the sun, i miss the little picnic we had, most importantly...i miss u=)
well...enuff of this lovey dovey mushy stuff=)

gonna have a tea appt with my ceo later=) it could be a jz tea appt, a tea appt with hidden agenda or watever but m prepare for the best and also the worst=)

this is going to be politics....cuz words spread ard fast...

i'm in this comapny for hardly a week...today is my 6 day and my ceo is already asking me out for tea...those who had work for months...doesnt get this chance...well...they either gonna hate me or play politics too n pretend to love me~oh well...thats wat happen when u r in a big company....v.political...n my manager in charge is not aware that my ceo is aking me out for tea appt and she's not being really "like" by my ceo...hmmm...i'm playing with fire...gonna be real...careful but the good thing is my manager is not ard today^^ lol but still...gonna do something abt it...i dun wan my other col to pass the word ard to her n it became so damn twisted...

anyway i'm looking for part timers...anybody interested???

this is my work email add: michelleq@mindchamps.org

one more week to boty two more week to sg championship=) work hard train hard and take care love^^ hugs

it has been a long long long long time...
i would come back home singing to myself n happily share my day with my family=)
i really love my job to the extend i find each and every task like a challenge to overcome^^
and it feel so good when my managers and all reckon my hardwork and really appreciate me=)
the last time i have the drive to work everyday and find it interesting was when i was working with skateline and skatesports...
n now=) i'm truly happy=)i'm so looking forward to work everyday!!!

hmmm....i need to save $$ n go exe...hmmm...i have a few choice...

BBLSS-> but my instructor have a very tight and pack schedule...dun think he can fit me in...i dun wan a stress instructor either...so maybe when he's in a better mood ba~

AMORE--> hmmm...nice..near my house...but not all place have gym facilities...but muz die die sign a 3mth pkg...n it's ard 300+...can consider thou...

CALIFORNIA--> nice...big gym..nice big steam room...provide everything...yes frm facial foam. moisturial to shampoo n all...6 week for $20 only...worth considering too...but distance wise...hmmm gonna think twice...

hmmm..i think i gonna write a letter to singtel and complain about their service...THEY KP FREAKING REPEAT SENDING MY SMSES!! oh well tat was the feedback i recieve...i kp sending the same smes...i hope they will look into that..cuz it's not nice to let pple ard me think i have alot of money kp repeat send my smses.

looking forward this sat^^ sending my phone to repair in the morning, follow by a lazy breakfast n walk along holland v or rochester park with my dog den rest at home den maybe at nite if i have nothing i'll meet my girls for chit chatting n bitching session^^

=) gonna sell off my clothes!!!who interested!!!all branded n brand new!!!!!call or sms to fix appt!!!!!

=) it's funny, all my cols came running to me and ask:"are you from aussie?u have the aussie accent"

so dear all...no..i'm not frm aussie neither m i a aussie...

i jz tends to slang alot tats all lol...